Lonely and Memories

11.12.2010...Saturday...

Lonely and Memories!! Why these feeling keep on bothering me?? Why am I Lonely?? What kept me always thought about the old memories? I hate it..I kept telling myself stop that feeling and the memories, but I cant!! Why?
When a person that close to you suddenly dead, You will keep wondering why although you know the reason. You will feel like your brain is shut down and blank. You dont know what to do, You dont know what is going on!!You just feel blank and sad. When the time has gone, you will slowly woke up and you feel like this is just a dream. You control your madness, sadness and conscious with a wrong explaination that form by your brain. Maybe is hard to understand but it true for me.
When time go on, you feel like life still go on as usual. You mad and sad but no one understand you. Every sweet or sad memories between you and that person will aways came out from your brain. It's just like want you to kept on remember that person. But time will help you to forget about it.
I kept having these memories with my aunty and my grandparent.I feel regret to my grandparent and sorry to my aunty. If time can go back, then i will do everything that i can to reduce my regret to them. But too bad...
Now i just leave my loneliness and memories. This will always and forever be there for me.
Lonely and Memory.

From,
Chansy -Real Life Diary-